Being a mom...

Every single day tries my patience with our children. 

Yesterday, moms everywhere were celebrated and loved and praised. It was Mother's Day. It's what's supposed to happen, right? I even had a neighbor friend tell me how amazing I was because I have the patience to homeschool. Ha. Ha. Ha. Ha. 

Oh yes. I have such great and amazing patience that I was driven to my blog to type these things out immediately because surely God has a message in here for this mama. And by "this mama" I mean me. 

It's moments like this that I wonder why God would have ever chosen me to be a mom. And I certainly question my decision to homeschool when I can't even get them to stay on task. 

Moments like this I have to pull out the big guns. Oh, yes. I even threaten to take away their electronics time. I swear they sucked every breath of oxygen out of the room when I made my threat. 

I didn't raise my voice. I didn't yell. I think they saw my seriousness. And now they are quiet. 

And then the guilt sets in. The enemy accuses me that I'm not fun enough. I'm not relaxed enough. I'm not...enough. 

It's the same accusation today as it was 20 years ago, just under different circumstances. 

It doesn't really matter what he accuses me of. I have a choice. To listen or ignore. To believe or refute. To accept or deny. On many days I will sit and listen to him, even engage in an argument about why I am enough. 

And then I remember, The Lord fights for me. The battle is His. And He already won!

"The Lord will fight for you; you need only be still." Exodus 14:14

So tomorrow we have another new day. Another day to start over fresh. Another day to remember who God created me to be. 

So whose voice will you listen to today?