What is God calling you to do...

I wish I had beautiful and eloquent words to type this post. All I have is the jumbled up thoughts in my head at the moment.

I've known for some time that God is calling me to do something. I have no idea what. None. Zero. I just know that I have felt His pull on my heart for a while.

In the midst of the last year of our lives...the losses we've experienced...I simply ignored this pull. I ignored what I felt in my heart. I ignored the voice of the Lord in my head and heart speaking to me.

I wish I hadn't wasted the last 12 months doing that, and yet I did.

So I am here today. Realizing that there is something stirring, indeed. And all I can do is say, "okay, Lord...show me. I'm willing."

That last part. It's a scary thing. The willingness. The submission. The heart of surrender.

Isn't that what following Christ is about?

"And Jesus, walking by the Sea of Galilee, saw two brothers, Simon called Peter, and Andrew his brother, casting a net into the sea; for they were fishermen. Then He said to them, "Follow me, and I will make you fishers of men." They immediately left their nets and followed Him." Matthew 4:18-19

They didn't pause, hesitate, question or pack up their stuff. They followed.

I want to have a heart like that. That recognizes the voice of the Lord and obeys. I want to have a heart that "runs in the path of His commands..." because He truly has set my heart free. Psalm 119:32